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Someone I know, his wife has had cancer for the last year or so, and she passed away this morning. I've never even met her, but I can't stop crying. I just feel so sad, for him, their kids.... I can't imagine even imagine what the pain must feel like.

There isn't really any words. I'm just so sorry.

I had a bit of a moment yesterday. I went a bit mad. Kind of crazy actually. The thing is, I've done almost all packing by myself because Jamie has worked late etc, and I don't really mind because I find it quite calming to wrap glasses in bubblewrap etc... But yesterday I just snapped. Jamie was on his way home and said: I'm in Crawley, won't be long. And I'm going to play cricket at 1.30. And I knew he was going, but for some reason I went absolutely mad and when he got home, I got into the car to go and get some more boxes and I had a go at him and started to cry, a lot. I think moving gets on my nerves. Because I wasn't actually angry, just lost it. So Jamie, I'm sorry! Didn't mean to. Think I'm a bit nervous as well, starting a new job on Monday, at the same company, but I'm moving to the UK team instead of the Northern team.

Something makes me wonder... I have a couple of friends on facebook, whom I've known since I was little so I don't really want to remove them, but EVERY day they write on their status
1)How much person no 1 loves her boyfriend (this is also written about 5 times a day).
2)How much person no2 loves her family.

Now, for me it's kind of an obvious thing, I don't need to tell the world that I love my boyfriend and family, they can draw that assumption themselves I think. What is the point in writing it like... all the time? I'm seriously thinking about removing them, even though they are old friends.

Ohhh but the worst one is one guy.... He writes like: Gym, studying, run, working, gym, football training. And at the end of every week he changes it to: 11 gym sessions, 60hrs work, lots of studying, 2500 situps and 4 runs.
I'm not a personal trainer in any way, but that's not healthy. And also, there is not enough time in the world to do all of this unless you never sleep?! I think it's a bit of bullshit. I told him once that he was a bit sad, and he got so defensive that it made me think that it was made up!

Do I pay too much attention to these things? I'm probably just as weird as they are, as I'm writing about it! Does anyone else have the same annoying things? Or this proves that I look at facebook too much....

I know, I know, I know... I have been utterly useless at writing so far this year. But, I've been busy. I've been snowed in, I've walked 3 miles in the snow to get to work, I've studied and I've been househunting. Quite stressful start to the year (not really, but it sounds better...)

So... Got my exam tomorrow, have got a headache and I think that's due to too much studying. I really think I'll pass, and I'm still nervous?! Why?!

Found a house as well, moving 4/2 if the estate agent can confirm sometime. Really looking forward to it! Have packed little things like DVD's, CD's, things in drawers, books etc.... So, I've filled the only 3 boxes I had :p

Looking forward to Kaisa coming back to work next week, then the boys can start picking on her again. They've been calling me fat all week. Mean people! Will still miss Mattias a lot when he leaves. Bastard.

Oh well, break is over, back to studying! Wiiihooo.....

Yes, I know you have all waited for this moment. It's time for my yearly list!

This year's discovery: Don't drive home from work on May Bank holiday. It took 2,5 hours!

This year's mistake: Jamie applying for World Cup tickets and got 12, and didn't actually want to go!

This year's comment: "I don't know how to do this". Someone at work says it a lot:P

This year's song: You know me - Robbie Williams. I'm so glad he's back!

This year's group: Black Eyed Peas. They done some brilliant songs this year.

This year's expression: Jag ska konfirmera dig. - Kaisa Jokelainen.

This year's most talked about: Cheryl Cole's dresses. Seriously, she needs a new stylist.

This year's party: Not really a party, but when we went out for Sweden-Denmark 6/6. That was a great night out!

This year's idiot: The person who never knows what's appropriate to talk about.

This year's most wonderful person: Jamie, as always!

This year's sweeties: Matilda and Oscar. They are still my favourites!

This year's Mr Nice Bum: One of Darren's friends... He was a soldier and was ripped!

This year's biggest moaner: Everyone who lives in England and NEVER say a good word about the country. Move home to where you're from!!

This year's disappointment: Sweden not making it to the World Cup.

This year's look-alike: Christopher and Nordman.

This year's christmas present: MacGyver DVD set. I'm back to being 6 years old!

This year's couple: Marina and Kim. I don't really know them anymore, but went to school with them, and the only way I know what's going on is by having Marina on facebook and reading her blog. But they've been together for something like....7 years? (Marina is my age btw) and they've now got a baby girl. It just makes me happy to see that couples like that exists!

This year's people-I-can-live-without: Moaners.

This year's I-think-I-know-more-than-I-actually-do: I'm taking my dad off this year, and put on my sister Maria. She's been taught well by him!

This year's has something going on: Cheryl Cole and Lloyd Daniels. Made me cringe every time I heard her say how good looking he was. He was 16!!!

I'm sorry I haven't written for a while, I've been quite busy getting ready for christmas. Only half day left at work, I can't wait!! I just hope that my family can get here, considering flights have been cancelled etc....

I have made more mistakes in the last week than within the last year at work, ridiculous. Think I need a holiday. My boss has even had to remind me to do stuff! Embarrassing. Luckily he's a great boss so he doesn't make a big deal out of it, even though I think he should sometimes...! It's like when I'm being a complete idiot towards Jamie for no reason and he doesn't get mad, even though he should so I realise I'm a pain in the butt!

Anyhow, as I said, half day left. Can't wait!! Just hoping that I get all my translations tomorrow that I'd completely missed out on and panickly emailed and called about just before I went home and begged them to get them to me by tomorrow. I do apologise (not that I think they're reading, but you never know!)

If I don't write anything before christmas, have a lovely Christmas! And you will see my yearly "This year's....." list on new year's!

I had the worst nightmare ever last night, I woke up crying and couldn't stop because it felt so real, even though I knew it was just a stupid nightmare!
I dreamt that Jamie came home and said that he's had an affair with someone called Jan who worked at his old company ever since we started going out and now he was gonna leave me because he didn't love me and didn't find me attractive anymore! And I had nowhere to go, it was all very weird and he didn't seem to be too bothered! I was furious!

Luckily I have a boyfriend who doesn't seem to mind getting woken up ay 6am with a text to calm me down :) I swear though, this is Tiger Woods fault! I couldn't see him as anyone who would ever cheat, he seemed like a genuinely nice guy so it's hard to believe! However, I don't believe that there are 12 of them, I think a lot of girls have come up with the idea to make some money at the moment. Some of the girls are minging!! I considered calling The Sun and say that I'd slept with him and see how much money I got for it, and then say: HAHAAA you stupid people fall for anything!

Bye for now.

So many people I know just had or are expecting a baby. There are babies everywhere, there is a babyboom going on! And before anyone thinks anything, no, we're not having one, but seeing everyone else having babies makes me really want to have one! I can't wait until the day I have kids (however, that doesn't mean I want them now!) Anyway, congratulations to everyone who has a little one now!

I still have no plans for tonight, so I will have to do some cleaning. Booooring. But if I do some now, I can do less next week....

Well, have a nice weekend everyone!

It's Friday tomorrow and I can't really come up with anything to do, apart from cleaning. Great fun on a Friday night! I don't want to go anywhere too far from home because I have to be home Saturday morning to go shopping with Helen (Jamie's mum). So at least I have plans on Saturday...! Going out with Ida in the evning as well, that should be good!

Has been really hectic at work this week, but I have been doing 3 peoples jobs for 2 days now. Good thing that one of them is back on Monday...!

Have baked some more bread. Without baking I would be bored to death :P

Jamie cut my hair last night and all of a sudden I hear him say: This is not straight at all. Eh thanks.... That's some words you don't want to hear when you have your hair cut! But it ended up well anyway.

He went to Italy today, but when I got home from work he'd left me a lovely little letter on the table to cheer me up. He really is the best boyfriend in the world :)

Baking some xmas loaf now. Mmm yummy! Or I hope so at least, it smells nice!

Jamie is going to Italy tomorrow so I'm all on my own for 5 days or however long it is :( Don't like it, but it's alright. A lot more used to it now than I used to be.

I really don't have anything else to say. This was quite a meaningless message.

Got home from work and felt so miserable, mainly because of the weather, but I got in and got changed and did 15 mins lower body excercise, 30 mins running and 15 mins situps/weights etc. Quite well done I think, but it's not really that bad when I can watch tv at the same time :P

Work was really busy today, but that's nice. And I can't believe that Kaisa is going tomorrow, for 6 weeks! And I'm gonna be left all on my own with the boys :(

Just saw an advert for after shave with Jude Law in. I almost fell off the sofa. He's sooo hot.

I am so upset. I have found a cellulite. It's tiiiny and on the left side of my bum, kind of on top of the thigh I guess. HOW have I managed to get one?! I eat healthy, I don't drink very much, I drink heaps of water and still I GET IT! Life is not fair. Ok, I'm exaggerating a little bit, this is nothing compared to serious stuff but it still sucks.

However, apparently 90% of women suffer from this so I guess I'll just have to live with it. But for gods sake, I'm 22 years old!!!!!!

Not happy.

I got quite offended at lunch today, because I was told that everyone is capable of cheating and I don't believe that. I have NEVER cheated on anyone, and I know that might not seem like a great effort considering I'm only 22, but when I met Jamie I was in a relationship that was meaningless and I really wanted Jamie, but I stood by my principles and didn't touch him until I'd broken up with my ex. And I love my boyfriend more than anything in life, I can't see my life without him and when you love someone, you don't cheat! Well actually, if I in the unlikely scenario would stop loving him, I would still never cheat because it's mean! If a relationship is so bad that you feel like the only way you will feel better is by sleeping with someone else, break up, get a divorce or whatever. Or talk about it. Talking and honesty takes you a long way, trust me.

Btw, everyone who's reading this and have at some point cheated on someone, I am not having a go at you, I understand that there are reasons for everyone, even though I might not understand them. And I think a lot of people that have cheated regretted it (because I don't believe in "once a cheater never a cheater"). All I'm trying to say is that I don't believe that everyone is capable of cheating.

Got a sudden urge for baking at work today, so all evening I've been baking "lussekatter" and now I'm onto Chocolate Truffles, but bloody hell, they are messy to make! Have put it in the freezer for a while, hoping it will get a bit firmer before I start rolling them.

Had a bit of a weird day at work today, but hopefully it will be better tomorrow. And it wasn't exactly a bad day, just not as good as it normally is.

All this malarkey about bank charges, I think it's right for the bank to charge if you go overdrawn, but it should be a limit of £10 or something. Because the thing is, if there was no charge for that, it would mean that they would have to charge for every single account like monthly or when you open it, and that's really unfair for us people who don't go overdrawn. So stop moaning people.